My heart pounds writing this…
After refilling my pump on Saturday morning, the thought of taking the entire contents went through my head. But it stopped at that…a thought….the thought of my folks.
I’m not one for feeling such extremes like this, but a mix of emotions and stress have made for a difficult time recently.
I didn’t feel tearful or upset even, just hurt inside and very very black is the only way to describe it.
Being a ‘glass half empty’ kinda thinker, doesn’t really help these things.
So, what do you do?….
Go with it and carry on….That day, I went out and stayed out all day, it was the right thing for me.
We all cope with things in different ways.
A slick of eyeliner and lashings of mascara is only a superficial fix, but it always makes me feel good. Ok, make-up doesn’t take away any of the feelings but it certainly makes me look and feel better! Along with painting my nails of course! It doesn’t matter, what ever works!
Talking to some of you, chatting sense, nonsense and making me smile, really kept me going and I can’t thank you enough xx
As did walking and feeling the sunshine on my skin, a cakey treat and a glass of wine, these all helped things feel a little less gloomy.
What about the impact on my diabetes?…Amazingly my pump kept my bg’s between 5 and 9 that day!
Today I feel fluffier and brighter!