Eat, Sleep and Repeat

Thank you if you’re still following!
Everything had to take a back seat since my last post. Suddenly finding myself at the heart of what felt like a volcanic eruption, also known as work and being self employed.
For months it felt like a complete struggle, it’s amazing how auto pilot kicks in and you just power on and get through it. The eat, sleep and repeat cycle.
I kept an end in sight, to work towards and get through it. Looking forward to spending time with my family at Christmas 2016 and starting 2017 with a holiday. That, sleep, rest and no stress was key. And good food, not junk.
The workload was hard, mentally and physically. Every day I’d wake up feeling exhausted, legs aching before the day had even begun.
Sleep was so important. I kind of knew I wouldn’t have much trouble sleeping, as I was so tired all the time. Plus, I’ve never had much trouble falling asleep, usually within minutes of my head touching the pillow I’m out like a light.
I had some of the best nights sleep ever during that busy work period…The restorative effect of a good nights sleep when you really need it is like nothing else.
I’m way more aware of how important sleep and rest is, for so many things. Especially where my Diabetes is concerned.
Not enough sleep and I really see the effect on my blood sugars, 4mmol higher on average! And that makes everything harder work.
7 hours is the perfect amount of sleep for me.When I’m in a good sleep pattern, 7 hrs sleep and I’ll naturally wake up and need no alarm clock, which is pretty amazing really!
I lessened the caffeine which helped me feel calmer. And started reading again. This was my saviour! I love reading and always have loads of books waiting to be read. What better way to relax, de-stress, occupy my mind, to just not think, to have a bit of escapism AND to make a start on all those books I never have time to read!
Reading makes me feel so nice and relaxed, it’s such a good feeling! Kind of warm and fuzzy inside, like a great big hug for me and my mind. I felt content and at peace during one of the hardest working times of my life.
Work has eased up and I’ve kept up the reading.
I guess it’s called taking care of yourself!….X

Tea, TBR and a poorly monkey

Work reached fever pitch last week, as did I….

I had multiple bookings everyday for more than a week. Which is excellent. Long days shooting and late nights editing are absolutely fine when well. I rest assured that I’ll have some time off after a busy stretch. That’s how it works being self employed.

Typically, on day 2 or 3 I went down with a cold/flu bug. You just can’t make up the timing of these things, of all the weeks! I dosed up with cold and flu relief ahead of a very busy day shooting video, followed by photographing a corporate AGM business meeting that evening, and then returning to the office that night to start editing and sending the video through. I was still working come 1am, but called it a day shortly after. I returned to my desk at 7.30am the following morning to squeeze every working minute out of another busy day that lay ahead.

Continually I kept a watchful eye on my blood sugars. It was surprising how good they were considering how rough I felt. I think all of the work, the running around and the mental tension was keeping a lid on them, along with insulin corrections, barely eating and drinking plenty of water.

Thursday came, I felt so rough. You know when everything hurts. It was an effort to get in the shower let alone to try and mask the poorly face I was wearing. Thank heavens for concealer!! Three more days work ahead was all I could think….I finished my jobs for the day, and popped into a shop for tissues on my way back to the car, when I suddenly felt really peculiar….hit by a sudden wave of nausea, head spinning and the feeling of my legs buckling beneath me, I felt like I was going to pass out 😦 I clung to a shelf as the feeling washed over me two or three times. Luckily I didn’t pass out, and I bought the tissues but the whole episode made my blood sugars plummet. I just wanted to be home in bed, but instead sat and waited in the car until I felt safe enough to drive. Friday and Saturday were similar, flagging, I finished my work and went straight to the office to edit. Sunday came, 6 hours of editing and sending work. And then…..hoorah I made it, I could rest!!!

I don’t know what this bug is, it’s not your average cold, there’s elements of flu about it, joints hurting, eyes that can’t bear the light and a banging headache all the time. I still don’t know how I managed the past week, but I did!

I hadn’t needed to increase my basal insulin until Sunday. Sunday and yesterday are the worst I’ve felt, so I got my pump guide out from hospital and read through the sick day rules to familiarise myself with what to do.

For the past day and a half I’ve needed a +40% TBR and today I’ve a +50% TBR on. It’s a bit of a learning curve, as its the first time I’ve used the positive temporary basal rates for sickness. Hopefully today, my second day of rest will turn the corner on the road of recovery. Plus I’m under the excellent care of Dr Monkey PHD toast, tissues and cold n flu relief administrator!! Hey Monkey are you making tea?….




First Pumpversary!

This week, 22 April marked one year with my pump!!

With my trusty refuelling assistant Monkey!

With my trusty refuelling assistant Monkey!

I love it! I love it for transforming my life, for repairing my eyes, for making exercise possible without hypo’s, for making me feel free again.


Ps: I’ve celebrated with a present to self, a new handbag!

Blood sugars, trying to control the numbers game…

It’s interesting how blood sugars can create such a mix of emotions, feelings and mood.image

Start on the right or wrong foot, and they really can shape a day…

My waking thought is, what are my blood sugars?….

When in range I bounce out of bed, when off target everything feels like a struggle, and my first thought is why? Is it my fault/did I do something to cause it? I beat myself up over it. But sometimes there aren’t any obvious reasons why, which can feel hugely infuriating.

It’s funny with Diabetes being about control and balance. It’s quite an art to balance, controlling blood sugars yet accepting not always having total control! *Said the control freak!*

To CGM or not, that is the question?

Diabetic Clinic, Monday 9 March 2015:

HbA1c: 45 (6.3)
BG Averages: 81% in target, 3% lows

Top of my list for discussion with a DSN was *CGM, or Libre if the starter packs ever come back in stock again.

I’m undecided….

1. If I want a CGM?
2. If I want to be attached to two things, the CGM as well as my pump?
3. Would I want it all the time?
4. I realise the benefits but is it too much data for me?
5. What if I became reliant upon it? This scares me!
6. Which to go for..CGM or Libre?
7. Can I afford it?

I strive for the best control I can achieve, using diet and exercise – don’t get me wrong, I’m human and partial to a cream choux bun!…But I’m also aware everything has consequences! I’m obviously doing something right, but there’s always room for improvement.

Most of the time plenty of regular BG testing works, but there are two areas that rock my boat….possible hypos during the night (not all the time) and the effect of hormones, and exercise, all of which I want to investigate. I’m interested to see the fluctuations and what goes on during these times…CGM or the Libre being a way to answer some of these unknowns, especially as I never wake up for alarms set during the night.

My motto ‘If you don’t ask you don’t get!’

I asked the DSN if there were any moves towards CGM funding at my hospital, which there aren’t, but hospital could loan me a CGM for a week! Little did I realise I’d be going home with a CGM attached!!

Me and my CGM friend

Me and my CGM friend

So far….I’m still undecided. I wonder if a months worth of data is what I really need…or will it make me want for more!

Anyway, I can’t wait to look at the results next week when hospital download the data.


*CGM = Continuous Glucose Monitor, worn in addition to my pump